to follow up on the previous post…
From: Y
Subject: i see you are in a new relationship
Date: May 5, 2011 4:08:28 AM EDT
To: X
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From: X
Subject: Re: i see you are in a new relationship
Date: May 5, 2011 12:57:58 PM EDT
To: Y
I’m seeing someone, what of it?
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From: Y
Subject: Re: i see you are in a new relationship
Date: May 5, 2011 6:41:32 PM EDT
To: X
This message overflowed with your usual kindness and concern:
On May 5, 2011, at 12:57 PM, X wrote:
I’m seeing someone, what of it?
No matter what you may think or how you may now view our many years together, I loved you deeply. You were the most important thing in my life.
As you’ve noted, that was not enough to overcome my fundamental depression and overall misery at being alive.
I’m sure you have found somebody pleasant, with a steady job, and whom you’re happy to see. Unlike me who brought you down.
But: I had value. I am honest. I have a clear view of the world. I am intellectually rigorous, by which I mean I examine myself and the claims of others to weed out the irrational. Sadly, i have not been able to use reason to overcome my pessimistic view of life. But I have left behind many fears and prejudices that I once had, including religion.
I do not think there are many people with a mind like me and I thought in you I had found someone who would stand with me no matter what. I am forever broken.
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From: Y
Subject: So sad
Date: May 6, 2011 12:32:37 AM EDT
To: X
You erased all your feelings for me